Operation MJ – I have Problems …but who doesn’t??

soooooo this mash up of footage from 2014 is me in a nutshell…literally…when I watch this I’m like … I’ve got issues… this video was private for almost a year…now I’m making it public… because quite frankly at this point in my life… I literally have nothing to hide…..

It’s Me. Love it …or Love it. lol

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a gig…turned into a interview

Well my management snagged me a gig in Atlanta that turned into a interview. I love working and networking with others on the same wavelength. The stars are aligning … so lately I’ve been feeling so damn good.. This time I spoke with UnderGrind ATL about…me in a nutshell…P.S. the event was amazing… so many people showed love to the designers spite the rain and location change….the fashion show was dope… energy was so good…but I showed up late and everything after that went sooooo fast ;/ I don’t even remember my performance — I blacked out…and almost missed my set (smh) traveling from SAV to ATL is kinda a hassle…can’t wait to move back to ATL or finally get my a*$ to CALI… (lol) anyway — check this out !

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Photoshoot Share!

Soooooooo guys early April I really needed new photos for this campaigning “deal” I’m all in… I did this cool shoot with my girl Colbie of Colbie Fray Productions. I think These photos came out cool and I was able to do a little bit expressing myself. I’m really free with my braids I’ve been natural for about 4 years now so braids are so easy and I love feeling my scalp.. I’m thinking of the faux locs next…we’ll see πŸ˜‰ … anywho check these cool photos out.

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another day at the “shop”

This new material really has me excited. I went down to Atlanta to record two of the song ideas I’ve been working on recently. Felt really good to release that creative energy I had built up for weeks, I invited my team out while in session so we can all “mesh” so to speak. Got some rehearsals in for upcoming shows, new moves with my partners. My girl Briana came out to capture the session I had at ICON — look at this short video she put together for me to share with you guys!

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working on writing and fasting

Hey Love Birds! I am working on writing new records to release on my debut (first ever public) album. I’m currently doing a little bit of campaigning to promote “Year XXVI” as you know :). I’m super excited about my next and last vision for my previous project “Year XXVI” : I have deceided to produce “Year XXVI: The Visual” — this will be an 11 -13 minute short based on scenarios from my EP, I plan to release this before I turn 27 πŸ™‚ — (lol, I’m so cheesy…I love my birthdays lol) — anywho. This causes for a party! So I’m inviting the city of Atlanta out to view this as I launch the Premier of this visual and last phase of the EP “Year XXVI” on June 26, 2015 — This will lead right into my new music scheduled to be released September 2015. I hope you’re excited as I am. I am partnering with some really dope film-makers to make this happen and we are planning to have a full two-day shoot the first party of June 2015 — yes of course I will be sharing behind the scene footage and photos so you can share this experience with me! I’ve been social media fasting and I want to put more energy into blogging and sharing on my very on website — look forward to get more personal and career updates from me right here! stay posted !

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Today is a Toughy

Journal #1052015

For some odd reason…I had a rough time living through this day, as I’m faced with life’s obstacles I reflect on the things I’ve been through and how strong I have become… Unfortunately for me… I still feel sad about some of my past… It’s not so easy to erase the damages in your mind…I’ve been living in my own truth having to face my problems head on… I’m always wondering where I would be had I spoke up sooner about my abusive relationship…how could I have avoided this.. how could I have signaled the people around me that I’m in a unsatisfactory situation…maybe it wouldn’t have gotten that deep…maybe it wouldn’t have cut me so deep to the core…maybe I wouldn’t have let this change me and my outlook on life…they did say whats in the dark will come to light…and I’m no angel…but I felt like I’ve slept with the devil…

Trying to find who to blame and how to reverse the times…the years wasted…the energy spent dealing with the situation. It’s very hard…it gets easier by the day…but of course…as a woman I still want to be in a amazing loving understanding selfless rewarding relationship…Like I can work all I want to occupy my time and try to avoid the thought in my head…but once you have time with yourself and spend time with your own thoughts… things begin to surface…things you think was lost and gone away…

πŸ™ Still feel like there is nobody to talk to that truly understands me…everybody wants to say “you can do it” and yes…that sounds good…sounds great…I know I can do it… but where is the comfort…the real encouragement…the real support… where is the shoulder to cry on…where is the hugs and who can wipe the tears away when I have one of these “BIG BABY” moments…where is the person who can make me smile through it all…

& this is where music talks to me the most…

…this is when I talk to myself…this is why I pick up a pen and sing the melodies in my heart…

Even with all this said… I am grateful to be alive and well. Grateful to be apart of something bigger than me…I still feel unstoppable…just sucks to have to think about all this old non sense…pain pain go away…

-MJ